final love

Moved once again

2010-01-01T20:54:00.001+08:00

Happy new year !
& With the new year.
I've moved once again
to tumblr.
Like birds we all fly away some day!

hollyamanda.tumblr.com

YOYO!

2009-08-07T18:50:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry that some people couldn't get into my blog.
my livejournal

there is no WWW [world wide wed] hahas. okay :D

peace (:

shifting

2009-07-22T19:25:00.002+08:00

I've shifted to live journal already (:
but im slowly learning how to use it

http://hagm993.livejournal.com

BLOGGER SUCKS!

2009-07-22T14:52:00.003+08:00

Blogger sucks!
I think i'm moving to live journal.
at least live journal dosen't have so many problems with uploading pictures and the preview box being so darn small.
but i'll come back to reply tags,
and i will update my forever under construction links.
So you people will still be linked up.
will give my live journal link soon!

-peace out!

setback

2009-07-06T21:42:00.005+08:00

due to blogger being such a pain in the ass with uploading photos,
i couldn't blog & now I'm lazy to post the rest of the days.
BLAME BLOGGER :(

the two highlights in the past week.

this shot was only supposed to be me, firdaus, huisi & saufi
with the no evil poses
but jeco & benson decided to jump in.
so it turned out like this then after that mrs hannif was like
* you want me to take away your phone is it*HAHA.

me,ruwei & ah hui were in bus 10
then we pass by some bangla's.
then ah hui was like, eh ruwei , your boyfriends
see, who's the nicest.
then its like as if all the bangla's can hear us!
then all stare suddenly, omg unwanted attention.
HAHHA. that was funny lah.
last time the indian guy now the bangla's.

ICC !

2009-07-04T16:48:00.004+08:00

Ohh, to all infocommers if you reading this, this year's farewell will be quite different from the buffet & farewell video & games.
It has been changed to a simple long lunch & I shall be announcing the new positions there as well.
please don't be shocked when you find out its you.Committee members,
i hope you can agree with me on this choices and and and
After this year i don't expect Infcomm to be alive anymore.
wth, chai chee's population dying. our faults meh?So one last year to go (:
you can do it juniors! make me proud okay (:
all i expect t be left would just be P.A after the years.
So 18th July sound good for the lunch date-Mr Chia's treat ?

blogger sucks

2009-07-01T23:22:00.003+08:00

Blogger's being a bitch, will upload that : see/speak/whatever no evil photo,
& blog the third day of school
when blogger decides not to be stubborn,meanwhile tag replies (:

to saufi :Good luck for your prelims too (: LOL.
yeahh, rest in peace MJ.

to kimmmm! : i miss you too babe, hope to see you soon.

to Ruwei: haha, jealously sia!

to FiZ: haha okay son. but i wouldn't understand cause i haven't watch the first one yet.haha(:

drag me to hell

2009-06-28T19:18:00.003+08:00

watched drag me to hell yesterday,
er: words to describe this movie:scary, disgusting ,funny, sad.
items to describe this movie: eye,button,fly, goat, kitty.
haha, maybe i've ruined it for some of you.
ohh, something happened,while me and ruwei & huisi were queuing to buy the tickets.

Me : uhh, i hate people with boyfriends.
Ruwei: *grabs hand* you don't need a boyfriend,Your a my lesbiun & being my lesbiun is so much better.
Indian guy turns around and stares at us. HAHAHA

photos in photoblog yo!

my parents suck ass

2009-06-28T11:50:00.003+08:00

everything i do, is never right
whatever it is to you does matter.
i just i will spend the rest of my life attached to this desk.
i guess for once, this dream came true.
-i spend my whole life listening to you fucktards.
but you can't even bother to spend one damm second to listen to me.
your the ones that makes damm mistakes & don't admit them.
my parents suck

-solitary confinement seems like the best option for me right now

tag replies,

2009-06-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

Tag replies.

To jody : xoxo too <3\

To Ruwei: so mean! rapist & now dog killer, what more? hahas!

To Niki : lols, so mean, but i think someow its okayy to be mean about this,
haha but still. she's important too. hehs. & yay on the same photo of MJ (:

To Faiz :Haha, i'm used to having weird scary dreams. lols,
thanks for the good lucks <3. takecare (:

RIP MJ

2009-06-26T17:56:00.006+08:00

I had another dream,i dreamt fenny had puppies,
but but it wasn't hers. its somehow adopted.
then when i woke up my brother said guess what;
i was like, don't tell me fenny has puppies *in my head*
then he said MJ died. i was like, woahh,okayy.
Well Rest in peace MJ.
ohh & charlie's angel: Farrah Fawcett ; RIP too.
Mtv & channel [V] is playing MJ hits the rest of the day &
BBC,CNN, E-entertainment & FOX is
still reporting about his cardiac arrest death.
Ohh was in school today for F&N,
were like the undone f&n cw peoples
heh,it was alright but submitting date 14july.
haven't even done practical.heh,
& that's the maths paper 1 & 2 day :(

ohh & i'm bringing back my photo blog (:
private blog maybeeee,

call me, stupid cause I'm starting to miss you again.

sideboards

2009-06-25T16:42:00.004+08:00

This is like my first photoscape edit.
WOW. i suck at it.so noob.
supposed to have gone for F&N but i had the eye infection,

I tried to be perfect,but nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,That I'm trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

Talking to you is oh-so painful, you know.

why are people always leaving; i think you and i should stay the same

2009-06-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

Eveyone says; they have a phobia of loosing their friends.
but i find myself, loosing them one by one.

since everyoneis doing this quiz.

2009-06-22T20:55:00.002+08:00

since everyone else is doing this quiz

1) Besides lips , where is your favourite spot to get kiss ?
- umh, cheeks .

2) How do you feel when you woke up this morning ?
-tired.

3) Who was the last person you talked with ?
- my mum.

4) Would you consider yourself spoiled ?
-nah, i don't think i am.

5) Would you donate blood ?
-yes, in the given situation.

6) Have you ever had a best friend who is opposite sex ?
- yeah.

7) Do you want someone dead ?
-no not really.

8) What does the last message says ?
- i can only go swimming on saturdays.

9) What are you thinking right now ?
-to finish this quiz & get back to h/w.

10) Do you wish someone was with you right now?
-yeah.

11) What time you went to bed last night ?
- 12 plus.

13) Is someone in your mind ?
-you can say that.

14) Who was the last person you texted ?
-sally.

15) 10 people tagged to do quiz,
[if you people even bother & i know some of you already done it, i can't think of any other people]

1.Ruwei

2.KIMM

3.Danah

4.Heni

5.Guanan

6.FIFI(RP)

7.Shafiq(RP)

8. Sally

9.Sarahfina

10.Whoever.

16) Who is 2 having relationship with ?
-no one,that i know of right now,

17) Is 3 male or female ?
-Female.

18) If 7 & 6 get together , would it be a good thing ?
-HAHAHAS.

19) What is 1 study about ?
-stuff i guess,

20) When was the last time you chat with 5 ?
-just now.

21) Is 4 single ?
-No, thats what last heard.

22) Say something about 2 ?
-i miss you!

23) What do you think of 3 & 6 being together ?
-they hardly know each other.

24) What do you think if 6 & 7 fight ?
- nah, i don't think they will.

25) Do you like 3 ?
-Yes, i do.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage:
-coke.

2. Last phone call:
-My brother.

3. Last text message:
-Movie changed to next Saturday.

4. Last song you listened to:
-BOOM BOOM.

5. Last time you cried:
-today,

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice:
-nope.

7. Been cheated on:
-nope.

8. Kissed someone & regretted it:
-yes.

9. Lost someone special:
-yes.

10. Been depressed:
-yes definitely.

11. Been drunk and threw up:
- didn't throw up,

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. PINK
13. BLACK
14. YELLOW

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend:
-yeah

16. Laughed until you cried:
-yeah.

17. Met someone who changed you:
-maybe.

18. Found out who your true friends were:
- i don't know yet.

19. Found out someone was talking about you:
- i guess.

20. How many kids do you want to have:
-i don't know yet.i don't plan far.

21. Do you have any pets:
-yes a dog named fenny, i had her since primary 2.

.22. Do you want to change your name:
-no i'm good.

23. What did you do for your last birthday?
- whine,school,cake& movie.

24. What time did you wake up today?
-10 plus.

25. What were you doing at midnight last night?
-watching teevee.

26. Name something you CANNOT wait for:
- My N levels to be over.

27. Last time you saw your Mother:
-5 seconds ago.

28. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life:
-everything.

29. What are you listening to right now:
-the teevee,

30. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:
-I guess so. Tom's a common name.

31. What's getting on your nerves right now:
-Stomach aches.

32. Most visited web page:
-Youtube.

33. Whats your real name:
-Holly Amanda Gabriel Modder.

34. Nicknames:
-Hollie Wollie, HOWLIE.whatever floats your boat.

35. Relationship Status:
-single,

36. Zodiac sign?:
-Scorpio.

37. Male or female?:
-Female.

38. Elementary school?:
- Park View primary school

39. Middle School?:
- Chai Chee secondary T_T

40. High school/college?:
- Like i said i don't plan far?

41. Hair colour?
-Dark brown.

42. Long or short:
-Long,

43. What do you like about yourself?:
-I don't really judge myself ,i let people can do that.

44. Piercings:
-my ear, 5 piercings.

45. Tattoos:
-nope,

46. Righty or lefty:
-Rightty

FIRSTS :

47. First surgery:
-not yet

48. First piercing:
-can't rmb.

49. First best friend(s):

-evangeline, which i hardly see anymore.

50. First sport you joined:
-Hockey.

51. First vacation:
-Philppines.

52. First pair of trainers:
-do friends count?

RIGHT NOW

53. Eating:
-nothing

54. Drinking:
-water.

55. I'm about to:
-answer these questions

56. Listening to:
-teevee.

57. Waiting on:
- for these questions to end.

YOUR FUTURE :

58. Want kids?:
-maybe

59. Getting Married?:
-Hopefully,

60. Career?:
-I don't plan far.

Which is Better ? :

61. Lips or eyes:
- Both equally important.

62. Hugs or kisses:
-Both.

63. Shorter or taller:
-I'm okay with anything.

64. Older or Younger:
-we don't grow young do we?

65. Romantic or spontaneous:
-i don't know.

66. Nice stomach or nice arms:
-depending.

67. Sensitive or loud:
-don't know.

68. Hook-up or relationship:
-neither.

69. Trouble maker or hesitant:
- neither.

HAVE YOU EVER :

70. Kissed a stranger:
- nope,

71. Drank hard liquor:
-nope,

72. Lost glasses/contacts:
- yes, contacts.

73. Sex on first date:
-nope,

74. Broke someone's heart:
-yes.

75. Been arrested:
-nope,

76. Turned someone down:
-yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. Yourself:
-I guess.

78. Miracles:
- yes,

79. Love at first sight:
-yes

80. Heaven:
-yes

81. Santa Claus:
-I'm not 5.

82. Angels:
-yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

83. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time:
-nope.

84. Did you sing today?:
- yes.

85. Ever cheated on somebody?:
-nope,

86. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?:
-to the day i was born.

87. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?:
- geez, i don't know.

88. Are you afraid of falling in love?:
-sometimes,

89. Posting this as 90 truths?:
-nope not really.

90. Love yourself?:
-yes,

ms sng's wedding.

2009-06-21T14:41:00.011+08:00

I know i might get in trouble for posting this, but never mind (:

-now i didn't take this cause i was too far back. someone else in front did.

now all of you in your hearts shall say : aww,

yesterday was ms sng's wedding, only like 3 sec 4's turned up.and the rest were sec 3's and the teachers and staff. When the guy was like, i would like to thank,students and colleagues from chai chee everyone was like. Woohoo! atleast the chaicheeans only. see we may be small but were still heard (: I was kinda upset at first that i didn't get to take photos with her, like what happened to me at ms hafizah's wedding. but in the end i did. but i'm ugly! but yeah, never mind.When we get back to school. can't wait to greet.
but i think we won't get to see her before our prelims.
I wrote something really stupid in the guest book: well i had no time to think about it.
I wrote : congratulations (: ms sng
your finally getting hitched. stay evil the way you are (:
love holly,
HAHA, i know right.but hey, she picks on me alot okay ! haha (:

&& me and sally went swimming after at the downtown east chalet's.
sally started waving at a small boy, then more and more people started to wave at us,
and i think some guy took a photo of us, when we passed by the glass.but it was from a different glass,
OMG. so pervertic.no privacy when swimming man.
& then she came to my house for a really late dinner.like at 10.
she missed fenny ! see atleast someone misses fenny!

dreamt

2009-06-17T11:01:00.005+08:00

yesterday i went out with KIM BBY <3
were meeting her again tmrr for her birthdayyyy,
I dreamt of rayyan, lols, but this was a few nights back.
so i decided im gonna blog abt it.
we were on this school trip.
but it wasn't kotakinabalu
we stayed at this hotel
it had 100 stories,
without a lift.
how stupid righttt.
then i was on the 89th storey
then i forgot something and i just came down.
the stairs is like the type of tree house stairs.
then i saw rayyan at the balcony he was on the same floor as me
then i asked him to help me take it & come down.
and then he didn't & he called me lazy.
then he said how am i gonna limb kotakinabalu if i can't climb,
89 stories.
& when i told rayyan he told me it sounded like him,(-_-)

f-ing-asshole,

2009-06-15T15:15:00.005+08:00

you know, so %^&*(*^%$#$%^&*(*&^%$#@ pissed,
my mother can always make time for other people,
but not me. Spend freeging so much money on her sisters & my relatives but not me.
she can spend so much on them. but me no.
she's supposed to follow me to get a dress, but then no.
go by yourself & use your own money.
other people will say " ohh i can't go, here's money,sorry "
but no also got i need to borrow your money -!-
fucking asshole.
see this is what i mean by all you do is push me away.
infront of other people only,
even got no time to collect my report book,
i need other parents to collect my own report book for me!
why don't you just disappear. no time for me no time for anything.
If you think my parents are nice people , your wrong!
how i wish she reads my blog.

photo's deprived :(

2009-06-14T21:13:00.015+08:00

I'm so picture deprived today. Why you ask okay.
well,i came early to ms hafizah's wedding. opps! i mean mrs hafizah.
can't wait to greet her when school reopens !hahs
then the rest were like taking pictures with her.
then she said *holly, why you don't want to take picture with me?*
then i was like : shy shy uh. later (:
when people have DSLR's and i have my stupid digi-cam.
i feel so weak! omgd!
then its like i came too early :(
the rest all haven't arrived yet.
i want the photo with everyone in it ! GOSH.
okay, so soon it was like, alot of people,
then guanan decided to leave.
i wanted to say bye but. its like. paiseh!
i left a present though.
then when guanan & the rest were already at the bustop
saufi called, saying he was lost! and he blamed me, for him being lost.
he didn't confirm he wanted to meet me.
okay, luh. my fault!
so went back.
what's with men and asking for directions man!
then while i was searching for him,
i saw the photographer taking the *students* photo.
and i wasn't in it.*heart pains*
extreme sadded!
okay, since saufi didn't wanna stay & he didn't want to go for the other wedding in woodlands.
he scared lost again,
we left again, with guanan too
then off to TM.
then suddenly in my mind i though of ,shite i didn't get to take a picture with donna.
then like as my though passed, i saw her!
then i she seemed to be rushing off.
so nevermind :(
and there won't be a next time.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
sadness,sadness,sadness,sadness,sadness,sadness,sadness,sadness,
well, its not like i'm never gonna see them again right?
but the moments were not captured!

fhugh

2009-06-13T20:38:00.007+08:00

people tell me i look like a Che'pon from the back [-_-]

If the japan trip wasn't canceled.
we would have reached there by now.
i wouldn't have remembered if guanan didn't msg me ;(
geez, okay enough drama.
my mum tried planning a trip back to Philippines.
but then clashes with everything. so might as well stay here.
there's still the Bangkok & kotakinabalu trip.
until something else decides to come up.
Infocomm camp 1st week of prelims.
are they mad or what. Like we can attend.
I heard NCC having it the same time as us.
then we can study together (:
that should be fun. if they really want to go.
okay i had a really weird dream.
I had 2 dreams in a night.
my first dream was, i won the photo competition.
OMG,how awesome!know how bad i felt when i woke up?
the seond dream was i went on this trip & on this trip we went to some museum
& this trip on the trip suddenly said. *my mother died in the store room here, i think her sprit still remains.*
then everyone was like. WOAH. then a teacher with apparently turned out to be a teacher from ccss.
*not mentioning names here* they read our blogs.but i just dreamt of them. so not my fault , i can't control my dreams.the teacher said,she's banging alot of things, she seems pretty angry. why don't you go talk to her.
so that girl accompanied with the teacher went to talk to her *mother* in the store room.
they're fighting so scared sia. So noisy.
then then then
i dreamt i woke up & my dad told me he had the same dream -[ i hope i didn't loose you here ]
okay, somehow my dream had 4D in it too
but no number unfortunately.
Sorry if you don't understand! i don't know how to explain,
[edited]
i just remembered i had another dream that night
LOL, i dreamt ruwei had 2 brand new puppies!
RUWEI, woman i hope your reading this.
you know how much ruwei hates dogs.
& she had 2 dogs! they were so so so so so CUTE!
they were puppies only !
and she showed me her dogs through her webcam.
i cant even remember the last time we used a webcam online together!
hahahs. i just remembered only
So 3 dreams in a night

See you all at the wedding tmr,
Im out!

;

2009-06-12T15:21:00.014+08:00

I made her a disc card. heh.

Yesterday was anjali's birthday at the Eurasian association & met kim too :D
i didn't take much photo's with her cause i looked PANGIT!
i don't get to spend much time with my cousins cause of my dad.
its not my fault he hates the world. & he wants us to hate the world too :(

r-e-j-e-c-t-e-d

2009-06-09T12:23:00.003+08:00

okay, i shall rant my day-
I know its super random , i felt like in the bloggedy mood yesterday so yeah.
yesterday i slept at 11, woke up at 12.30 to chat.
chatted all the way until 2.30.
then slept from 2.30-3.00
and then sent my relatives off to the airport.
came back at 6 and i slept from 6 all the way to 12.
ohh! i had mac donalds at the budget terminal (:
at first my dad said the don't have Mac @ budget terminal. but they do so yay (:
heh (: okay now, i'm missing the food. but its time for lunch soon.
My mom says i need a diet :(
i'm fat :( i wish i was on the biggest loser,
and here i am blogging.

&& now I think i had enough of being rejected, now i know what it feels like getting back what i always gave other people,well sorry. I won't bother you anymore. I guess your just like me,
You don't want to let anyone into your solid rock heart of yours.
okay, i'm done here,

Hey, azli : thanks for keeping me company, it means alot,
from like 12.30-2.30, if you ever need me i'm just a message away okay (:
Takecare :D

SORRY

2009-06-06T10:49:00.002+08:00

Azli : i'm sorry for bugging you all this time. but the suspense is really killing me. I so need to knw, like really, If you consider me a good friend please break my heart with the bad news. I so need to know,but if you are in a position ,that you can't tell\me, then its okay. sorry for being impatient. sorry for irritating you. sorry for the many many sms-es. I'm sorry, I'll stop being irritating now. If you don't want to talk to me anymore. I'll understand. I know my irritating-ness kills people sometimes.

_!_ the world,

2009-06-05T21:21:00.002+08:00

Hey, I need anyone right now.
Why does everyone like to make my day a horrible one.
getting kicked out from a place & laughed at is so typical, whatever, thanks for ruining my day.
fucktards.heh,Whatever luh.
If you people find me dead don't be surprised

God, i can't handle what you give me anymore

3 june 2009

2009-06-04T22:29:00.004+08:00

Well i guess yesterday's event crowned me the wrost F&N student ever well, i can't get things right the first time,yes thats me. I guess i'll just have to try again. HEH. its okay , still room for improvement. But i really hate redo-ing stuff.
I ain't bullet proof.

Hye yeon jagi : i know you want me to cover up your pictures with the smiley face cause you think they all are ugly.But truth is your prettier then the smiley face! 13434384339234 times prettier XD
The more post i make that post with your pitures won't be there anymore.
so is that better then putting a smiley face on your face.I don't wanna rmb you
with all the smiley faces ! okayyy?
&& sorry if you didn't want me to post this.

the magic flute -29MAY09

2009-05-31T22:42:00.040+08:00

we couldn't find that extra "Y"

gonna miss her :(

BC=bianda cheong.

Ruwei'ssmiling too! hahas!

jarah's there too but you can't see her , only jem.
sorry!

chairman counting peoples! (:

akid's random shot

ms has! (:

well, i showed her the video today. heh. i hoped she liked it. she was touched! (: thats what she said. okay,umh, school was like boring. everyone's like asking what to wear and stuff for later. i went home & went back to school to meet guanan they all were still doing execution. I haven't freeging done mine. =/ then went esso bustop to meet sudhanshi with gn. then waited for danah outside schl.
the magic flute was okay.
we should have more stuff like that often (:
not the concert i mean events like it.
yeahs. okay. I'm done.

another weeks endings.

2009-05-30T14:17:00.118+08:00

beware ! a lot of photos up ahead.

18 May 09

firdaus called my Cinderella full scape nice ! atleast someone likes it (:
alomost the whole day we did nothing again & its supposed to
be an intensive prog.
I helped replace hye yeon for recess today cause she was absent then danah said i betray ruwei's table or her
LOL. forgot already.
People remember my embarrassing moments in my seondary shool life sia!
so cool! okay not its embarrassing.

sec 1: when we used to have flag raising outside our classrooms
I leaned on the door which wasnt closed & i fell.
thats like so ancient. LOLS but people still remember

sec 2: I sat on a three legged chair but it was early in the morning so not alot of people saw.
when it was recess another girl sat on the hair and fell down & more people saw.
so it made me feel better.HAH. I'm evil i know!

sec 3: I fell off the lab table.
&& Danah cursed me just before i fell.
then when i fell she quickly run to me! LOLS
then guanan came out and said what happen my com suddenly off!
BASKET!

sec 4: nothing emmbarrassing yet, atleast i think so.

19 MAY 09

ms lim told me to tie my hair for 2 days in a row,
& at the same spot at the stairs.
SAY " PLEASE PRESS FLUSH"
then say it faster & faster.
I forgot today was sayang's birthday. OMG im such a bad friend!
i was really angry with my parents that time.
She invited me over to her house at the last min.
then i was like how come you just rmb me.
then she said. my grandmother ask who that girl came over your house to study that time.
LOLS .her grandmother rmb me instead of her. but its okay (:
as long as im remembered.

20 MAY 09

CW is suh a BIG pain in the ass.
Quote of the day : when you are down & out there will still be people that hurt you & make it wrost,

21 MAY 09

"Holly your such a big disgrace to the school"
i'm not the only one.
even so please don't judge a book by its cover.
I sucked at oral.
Mrs Hannif was like holly, don't do that in a real exam okay.
then i was like okay sorry
then she said don't apologise to me.
errr, okay.
MOOD SWINGS, keeps getting the better of me.

22 MAY 09

I was late for school.
school was boring.
I went around loyang secondary with sarah & daphne (:

23 MAY 09

Photography day with FIFI
thanks for the HARMONIC day eh son (:
I couldn't have done it without you.
& er, i ain't a good photographer
so don't expect much. SORRY.

24 MAY 09

WildWildWet with family & ruwei (:
she wants to tell everyone that i fell down while trying to take a short cut !
i'm tanner!

25 MAY 09

E-learning day.
super pissed off with the Lagging!
then photography taking with sally benson & jarah.
saw "the world end" the one that made everyone go "My Eyes!"
heh. if you know what i mean,
It was too hot in little india to take good photos.
in the end slacked off at raffles link.
then to bugis & meet the fam.

26 MAY 09

I WAS LATE AGAIN!
the fun shot was wasted.
i think i looked super unglam!

27 MAY 09

some person scolded me & i complained to someone else & it made me feel alot better.
YAY. okay whatever. makes no sense i know.
during the detention i sang songs with Lin Jia to kill time.HAH!
JAPAN. NO NO NO NO MORE.
sadness.well not fully confirmed. i think?

28 MAY 09

spent most of the day with guanan & danah.
english period was switched with physics.
Me & sauff described & drew our houses during maths.
Just outta Lameness. LOLS.but it was fun.
I'm a hook. but a very bad broken one.( in helping people)

weeks endings.

2009-05-16T19:33:00.012+08:00

If you come to school early enough ,you see this.

I guess now , i shall upload over the weekends,

12may09 :

I hate coursework, i hate coursework
I hate F&N ,I hate F&N.
but i can't do anything about it,
i failed maths :(
Amirul screamed in my ear, like almost directly.
tell me who wouldn't be scared huh?
I passed physics , i was happy, not arrogant.
BHB-ing a little has no harm.
i'm not arrogant okay.
i was just kidding okay.
after school i fetched fenny from the animal recovery veterinary hospital.
the nurses said she cried alot. when my dad left her there
cause my dad went there at 9.30, and her surgery was at 4.
and we fetched her at 9.
they called fenny drama ! lol.
she refused to go into the cage & go up the stairs.
WHINE WHINE WHINE CRY CRY CRY.

13may09:

Bianda's still uncertain about the japan trip & with her parents
gosh bianda , pleaseeee (:
my heart cannot take it , then i got o room mate :(
can cry. i'm scared if i room aloneee! howhow?
there was a fire drill in school today.
the principal said we improved our timing.
from 6 mins to 5 mins
i think in a real emergency everyone will scream & run.
then he said some guys were imitating the siren & some can sing also.LOLS.
i think it went like this " chai chee's buring down, chai chee's buringing down. buring down. burn burn burn"
i'm just saying.cause its like the campfire song. okay dokie.don't get angrry it ain't mean anything.
i had an unprepared ssneeze, and people said it sounded like a fart,lol.
& every year when there is a fire drill we always get burned in the sun.
like in primary school they made it so real, with depressed people & some coming out & the fire fighters people who come. so cool back then , remember they pretend to make it so real? The fire drill day thinggy.
omgosh! another thing.if you need to say someting then tell me uh. i'm not a freeging mind reader?
You can just tell me straight in the face. Don't give lame excuses. what? you couldn't pin me down and saying that i'm a bad leader & person. now you trying to use another bullet, -all your bullets drop on the floor & pick up lah okay. you blaming me for something that happened what? 2 years ago. huh? how am i supposed to know what the fuck it is. if you don't want to speak up,if you still hated me for something that happened 2 years ago why bothering being my friend. ever. get a life lah okay.N level coming. got more important things to worry about right. Hate me all you want! cause i couldn't care less. & get over yourself okay.
You know zi yhong, wanted to draw on hye yeon while she was sleeping. then i stop yi zhong,
then he scolded me. see how much i love you hye yeon? humphfff.
I hate filinggggg!

14may09:

It was raining in the morning ! & i shared my little umbrella so i like got half wet.
i was like not wearing shoes & socks half the time
next time it rains we all bring slippers to shool okay people!
I missed seoul garden in celebration with niki's birthday, anil invited me to go.
but too bad i had F&N .
Its like so hard to find people, i couldn't find niki.to wish her
like the school so big like that.
then finally i found her. but i already had sms=ed wished her.
I hate coursework & i hate filling.
went home with saufi & danah.
old chang kee coupons! heh.

15may09:

my coursework was like not done.
& today sumibition
& i thought i didn't have to bring my maths exercise book.
sorry ms rahayu!
today is supposed to be the start of the intensive programme but like, we didn't like do anything the whole day
if i knew and if it wasnt for my coursework i don't think i wouldnt be in school
All teachers sumbiting the files cause the principal wants to check cause today last day.
then english didn't do anything. cause people haven't completed their fillings.
history, the people tha supposed to present. didn't have the blah blah cable.
then ms sng wanted to give us a test.but then we all like unprepared.
so monday.then we did nothing the rest of the period.
recess rush on my coursework.
then after recess was physics.
mrs tay was absent so mrs hannif took over the lesson some people haven't completed their files too.
so i helped people with their files.
then i was doing firdaus's chapter coverpage.
then chuansin said you good uh. help fidaus never help me.
but huisi was helping him.
then i did the chapter cover page for firdaus. then i said okay i'm done thats my nicest.
then firdaus said YAY i win.
LOLS, okay, i think you don't really get it.
after mother tongue 1 hr 45 mins.
so finish up coursework.
and today's was weishan's birthday. also so hard to find her,
so i just wished her thru fb.
ruwei told her hello kitty died.LOLS.so bad.
i think everyone skipped the F&N test after school.
home with ruwei (:

chill pills

2009-05-11T21:16:00.004+08:00

Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse

my dogs medical just costed geez, i don't know another 1 million.
fenny, your so expensive. i don't even know if you will wake up after the surgery.
So much reduces the chances of me going to japan right now.
merajuk-ing session tmr, notice much.
desperate for that.

god,are you sure i can handle this
cause i don't think i can.
what does strong really bring you at the end of the day.
let me know so i can let go

fuck this family

2009-05-10T14:19:00.002+08:00

I hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my familyI hate my family
warren can go and die
tyler can go and die.
ALL CAN GO AND DIE.
i'm not talking to anyone here anymore,
in school.you all make fun of me , go ahead .
i don't want to give a crap anymore.

east coast park

2009-05-09T23:40:00.056+08:00

went to east coast park today for family picnic for mother's day
so feeging crowded.
I GOT STUNG BY A JELLY FISH !
ohh. trust me it hurts,bitch jelly fish.
big mood spoiler.
lucky its my left hand though.

2may09

2009-05-02T14:12:00.003+08:00

i'm leaving. but who gives a shit.
friends yeah right,
i don't want to see your fucking face anymore.
then you ditch me and you don't even say sorry,
you still got the fucking gut to ask if i'm okay.
Stop, pretending. cause im tired of listening.

1may2009

2009-05-01T23:17:00.005+08:00

Labour day (:
initially i went to the library to study with troy, but the library was closed.
wow. how cool right. then since troy had to go off already i went to syg's house.
well not much progress. but haven't seen her in a long time. so yeah (: good to see her,
For three straight years she has given me birthday presents and i couldn't have ever found the time to meet her during her birthday.I know im such a bad person.But i'l get us a couple tee this year for your birthday okay (:
look forward to it. Although it might be a little late.cause the place is finda far away.
Thanks for everything sayang (: will see you soon okay and i miss you already!
&& Thanks for the hamburger mug. my belated birthday present , its like so cute!
well i won't be able to make F&N tmr. sorry ms jam.
gosh! i need to organise - countdown to N's

Labels :yeah, were over.so enjoy your life okay.
I don't want to be any part of it.

27April2009

2009-04-27T21:50:00.003+08:00

Went to study @ resident's corner. I'm sorry suhada. but whatever decision you make. i will respect it & i will listen and no matter what you still are my senior photographer & your appreciated. Saufi & i are really just friends and that's all. But whatever decision you make its respected.

I've been keeping quiet all this time and other people have been fighting for me, so I guess i will speak up now,
yes, I'm not perfect i've made mistakes. But i can't go back and change it right? You don't knw what its like being a leader so who are you to judge me? YEAH? i agree, i screw up more then any other leader, atleast i try? Hello i'm just human?Your not a committed member. All those times you were asked to stayed back, did you? you rarely come for meetings & how many camps have you attended? I do give my juniors duty okay, Go ask them.Your not committed but yet you want duties. Does it work both ways?You ask for duty at the last min, cross -country sec 4's can't do duty. Tell me straight in the face, I want duty tmr, i would have given.TELL ME STRAIGHT IN MY FACE! You say your steping down soon?You want the juniors to do good.But i don't see you helping. Who has stuck through the club through the hardest times? I never even see you there. And i don't give a crap what those non-club members say cause they know nothing. who gives a crap what thefuck they think.How the hell do they know, they have never been in the club before. they don't know the situation.And you say i'm going around telling people your a bitch, I done nothing like that. how the hell does it benefit me? enjoy your life hating me yo! you ain't much perfect either. Don't listen to things you hear, For people, give me time. besides i don't need you.And please don't pretend.

24april2009

2009-04-24T22:57:00.013+08:00

woman,

spastic peoples.

stupid jeco, he did it twice someore.

bus- blurr- anil,ruwei & me (: they both got blue carebears but i don't ;/

danah was fascinated my matt's socks cause one ccss the other not
(sorry if posting this gets you in trouble)

my braces boyfriend (:

I"le just say what happened over the week alright.
Choir-Silver (:
Infocomm -COP. hahs! for SDMA.
never mind at least ours is every year.

23april2009
Napfa was irritating,
sit-ups,
sit&reach,
standing broad jump, so irritating the IC keep making us jump again and again.
If not i could have done better.sorry uh. but its nature to land on one foot before another.
shuttle run,
inclined pull up, i was like, i stop at 3.then i was like okay lah 2 more.
then i only did 5. hahas. could have done better also.

24april2009
super pain only my legs cramped & when i sneeze my stomach hurts.
Umh,I feel like isolating myself from this freeging family.
cause all they want me to do is study, i can't even have time to breathe.
You ask whats wrong but you don't know that your the main cause.

ohh, i have to say this cause ruwei blogged abt me, she fell down in johor 7/11 :D
MUHAHA!

20April2009

2009-04-20T21:45:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY SAUFI (:
and you said that people forgot your birthday, well i didn't.
so you don't forget mine either okay.can watch NC 16 movies already,good for you. heh.
but must wait for the rest and the pen you took from huisi is actually mine but you can have it (:
happy birthday with the pen. HAHA! kidding, wait luh okay. i get you a good present.

well,today started off bad, cause i forgot to bring my keys.
I was rushing & i forgot them, Then za'im didn't attend school.
The office didn't have a key ither, then finally Mr Chia opened the door with a screw driver.
Sorry my duty people. It was completely my fault.
I'm only Human, I make mistakes too right? I feel bad enough.
but in other peoples eyes what a fucked-up chairman you have.
So class was alright.
F&N had to do essay once again.
English compo.
History test, sorry i wrote my source based answer super short.
Maths , I'm still blur with that chapter.but will improve.
Physics, was okay.
After school, went to Tm for lunch.
walked around with dexter, sandy, ruwei, jeriel & xiaofong.
then home (:
SYF's tomorrow .GOSH!
wish us luck (:

19April09

2009-04-19T19:50:00.004+08:00

I need a chill pill.

Every now & then it comes back to give me stress & extra responsibilities that i don't need.
still calls me irresponsible and i had this job for like one year plus already. Its not like I'm always the one to be blamed right. why is it always my fault. i don't need this right now okay.i shouldn't give an effing* crap.Its not my fault you equip us with bad IT tech's. Last time were like so nice, not people say infocomm what?when I look at others schools, we should be jealous.I got a freeging headache. I didn't study for the past 2 days.yet somehow i'm stressed.Gosh please, make it go away. I'm done about worrying about unnecessary things when i could be concentrating on my studies, SYF tuesday. (?)

17April09

2009-04-18T23:27:00.004+08:00

Sorry for leaving this blog like so dead.
well yesterday was cross country, heh.
i got 119 position. i think i passed? i walked alot.
everyone was like eh, top 20? then in the end 100plus.
nevermind there's always next year , if there is one.
emerald won the mass cheer (: emerald boleh!
lots of thanks to our seniors!
i'm not allowed to scream but i did.- I'm supposed to be preserving voice for Syf on Tuesday.
After celebrated anil's birthday at the food court. made a lot of noise uh.
people eating also sang happy birthday with us.
made a mess too, but cleaned up luh.
then went to the sea, splash around , draw names in the sand.
didn't get wet much cause no extra clothes.
Then me and Ruwei went home first.
which two people go swimming after a 2.4km run.
yes, you guessed it. me and ruwei :D
that woman calls it free breast enlargement.
saw some class, the teacher super flexible.
tried following also, heh.
then went tampines1 walked around then home.

SORRY, i haven't uploaded the photos yet.
i will first thing tmr morning.

12april09

2009-04-12T17:12:00.002+08:00

I'm blogging cause i don't think i can take it anymore.
Remember when we used to be a fun loving club, but now were just distant.
Everythings my fault right? cause the teachers dont give enough support and you don't don't give a single crap about the club, or whatever i do.
Thanks to those that actually help and care. atleast i know some of you do,
unlike the rest. Don't give me your fuckass excuses cause i couldn't careless.
but heh. why should you care right. cause me blogging is just a waste of time.
you only care about yourselves.

10april09

2009-04-10T21:24:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone (:
sorry for not updating in a LONG TIME,
guess cause, there's been alot stuff going on recently.
well thanks to everyone that showed their concern,
Fenny's recovering slowly.
well, i guess i'm going to japan.
Everyone that said they helped me with payment are not really what i expected it to be.
instead i end up paying more, then i suffer more.cause i really want the both of them to go alot.
i'm not blaming them.i'm happy that they are coming along with me. its just harder for me.thats all.
Good friday today, went to church.No meat. i needa find a church buddy, if not i won't go church so often.
i saw razelyn at church. OHH. i was so called fasting. then my mum said i started too late so its not counted.
awws. well next year i wake up earlier. Every good friday for after 3 pm it rains, and its a fact.

31march09

2009-03-31T19:43:00.001+08:00

you don't know what its like loving a dog and then letting it go.
Fenny, stripped off her stitches cause her collar funnel came out,
I'm not prepared to let her go,

29march09

2009-03-29T12:24:00.002+08:00

My dogs surgery costed roughly $1000.
now only time can tell, I can kiss japan goodbye.
I need to give up a lot now.save up and make up.

28march09

2009-03-28T19:04:00.006+08:00

Its been the worst week ever for me.

Let me start from the beginning. My brother(2) brought my dog down and he didn't take care of my dog properly, So she ran into the bush. then a the next day, my dog started feeling lethargic and started loosing her appetite and everything. Then the next day, her front right paw from her armpit area and downwards started swelling, so we brought her to the vets. they said its a snake bite, so my mum spent a lot of money on her. She's getting better, like her fever has gone away and she's eating again, the vets say if it dosen't go away, She needs surgery. which my family can't afford. I'm supposed to be going to japan with infocomm, Guanan can't make it. cause he wasn't freeging chosen- i helped him finish his essay. its my fault.I hate IDA being biars all the time,especially to those smarter schools,I don't think i can afford it ither. with everything,my mum & brother(1) says that we need to put her to sleep.I had her since primary two you know. but my dad's telling me to wait first. it could improve,-pray for my dog, -pray that guanan gets to go japan with me.

I'm tired of crying. Fenny why you have to go,
and don't fucking comment. if you don't know what its like having a pet for 9 years
and letting it go.
Everythings my fault uh- just blame me- i'm done apologising so enjoy hating me.

27march09

2009-03-27T20:29:00.003+08:00

I'm upset,know, why.
My dog got bitten by a snake,
JAPAN :'(
my parents, too much money on my dog,
japan(?)

I'm tired of being upset, i'm tired of crying.
things never turn out right for me.

22march2009

2009-03-22T19:54:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow is like back to school already and it was like there was no holiday at all,
school burns all the holidays. I didn't go for choral exchange, cause my mum didn't let me.
The past years i turned up for it except this year which was at CHIJ st Joseph's convent.

20march09

2009-03-21T15:05:00.005+08:00

Facilitators & Ambassadors (:

Yesterday, went to the science center to be a facilitator, to takecare of those primary school kids,
once again I'm always in the A group for infocomm:Alpha(: . well it was an okay day i guess.
Kinda fun too but super tiring. My group had forfeit. so facilitators must do with their group, so we did. me and danah,& jonathan tan & kit ying. My kid got bullied then cried , then change group.
then the mushroom kid won. thanks to me(: cause i told him the answer. see i should win the best facilitator award. cheyy okay -.-

labels: i'm still a little too not over you.
I think i'le give up, were better of as friends anw.

16-17march09

2009-03-17T16:57:00.004+08:00

16march09

Today I had choir, i got a message at 12.30 that my e-learning is supposed to be completed by 11.30.
what the hell. from 9.30-11.30, why in the morning(?)on the first non-schooling day.We got the whole holiday to finish it. then give us 2 hours to complete, so freeging pissed, then say want to detain us for 2 hours if not completed.I called the number also no one answered.Fucking e-learning! I only managed to do english & physics. Chemistry,social studies,maths whatever else not done. Then i went to school for choir (: then complained to everyone about the e-learning.Then for break went to Esso to buy food. I left my ez-link card at school, so i had to use coins uh, paid 50cents, uncle not happy then say $1. i said one stop only.then the uncle stared. then i added another 40cents. i was said like out loud, whathefuck, one stop one dollar( well 90cents actually but still) stupid bus uncle.
Then cause jem didn't go to esso during the break, i followed her after choir but i didn't buy anything.Mrs kwek drove us there.cause of some deal she made with jem.I can't nake it on wednesday and friday.cause i'm going for infocomm at the science center,mrs kwek said must make sacarifices ,but then i said i'm just one voice in the choir and she said. one voice makes a big difference.

17march09

I went for coursework today to school.I'm the wrost coursework in class. yes i am,-indirectly said so.
but i have to improve on it. After school went to KFC with fridaus,husi,danah & guanan.
Danah kept bullying firdaus. he's traumstised.LOL.then walked around tm with guanan and danah.
I had another N level dream! the first one was i got 999 points for my N's and now, i was like waiting to get my results.
in the hall, waiting waiting. then like quite alot of people failed.Then i went to do P.A , my name still not called yet.
sit and wait. Then i woke up and i still don't know how much i got for my N's.

13march09

2009-03-15T00:30:00.016+08:00

aww,byzura missed me (:

The second Friday the 13th of the year

I missed school cause i went for my eye appointment again.but i went for the annual awards day rehearsal and parent teacher meeting, I thought I could collect my report book without a parent, but apparently i couldn't.
And you know what my mum said when i told her to attend, Nono, i went for tyler's meet the parents session when he was in sec 4 and its all the same.-which was what 3 years ago! -Its so different now,things change. neglected again,

Anil's mum volunteered to be my parent after all.
she is my god mum (:
i didn't do so well :(
guess i have to work harder then.
Then home with Anil's mum, Anil & byzura. Super fun! (:

11march2009

2009-03-11T21:53:00.003+08:00

This is for Holly:

Love, don't think too much ey? Don't blame yourself just cos' infocomm's dying. It isn't your fault. You have a major exam coming up and that's sth we all can't argue with. So what if they all blame you? Don't give a freaking care and tell me you're studying hard so you'll get to go up and spent your last year with us. School's stressing us out, i know. With your SYF coming up, you hafta put some things aside. Leave it MIA for awhile and once everything's done then you can focus on what you wanna do with it. I feel like i'm procrastinating alot. My schoolwork and stuff. I feel like i'm getting lazier and that i haven't been putting in much effort. Come'on, buck up Niki! I've also been leaving infocomm out and i've been focusing on my friends, life and sc. Anws. Holly, be strong. Don't think of those negative parts. You're the chairman, you decide when you wanna have a meeting or not. Don't allow others to push you or shove you down to the ground. You're strong, i know you are. Pleaseee don't say its all your fault cos' its seriously not. Nobody's to be blamed for this. Be strong okay? Love ya babe!

-Niki blogged about me, omgosh! so sweet,you made me feel better .Thank you darling (:
You too okay(: takecare, i guess we both need to learn to manage our time and stuff,
You be stong too aye?Whatever life throws at you, just throw back.

11march2009

2009-03-11T21:04:00.003+08:00

well, i was absent yesterday-i don't understand a freeging thing in maths.
i spent mother tongue period gossiping with ;bianda,grace,danah & hyeyeon
Choired.

I miss the Infocomm love, just to let you people know.
what happened to the screaming irritating fun infocomm club?
like when it just was sharie, jeff and robert.
maybe its my fault, everyone's forgetting about infocomm already,
i'm a shitty leader, i'm sorry,
i plan for a 3 day 2 night camp for ICC this year just to fucking bond! you people better bond.
now with the old man,everything's falling apart :(

labels : promise?don't ever forget

09march09

2009-03-10T19:56:00.004+08:00

9th March 0 9

wrote it on saufi's table cause i sit there for maths.

I got scolded by 2 teachers :(
and both were accidental.
on the computer image of the smart board. It was *PERSONS NAME* sucks.
then i went to the computer to press erase. cause i wrote it, then the same time mrs tay pressed erase,
then it came back on the screen again, with *Persons Name* sucks. with a smiley face!
then mrs tay was like Holly, stayback! - but she didn't scold me for writing it on the interactive board.
and she knew the backspace thing was an accident! lol right.
okay i know , you don't understand.
The second one was like during maths.
Byzura was like i lost my eraser, i stole 2 from the lab.
so i gave her one. she was like , i don't know where i put my eraser.
then i looked into her pencil box and was like! there your eraser.
wasted the brand new eraser! Then ms rahayu scolded my for being noisy- then i was like BYZURA!
today's submition for the Japan trip-wish Me,Guanan and Bianda luck (:
I gots 2 photo competitions to sign up for and i don't know if i have the time.
I needa finish making the infocomm jersy-somehow. people tell me which numbers you want okay.
had dejavu. with the SHUT UP i kill you thing,which was said in chinese!-LOL okay.
if you don't get it. watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1uwOL4rB-go
-Achmed the dead terrorist :D be open minded cause its a little bit racists.
me and jarah were so retarded with drawing circles and stuff.

-okay alot of this is hard to believe cause you wern't there, so you wouldn't understand.

10march09

I missed school cause i had an eye infection.
went to singapore eye healthcare center.
no more contact lenses for me,
its not getting any better :/

08march09

2009-03-08T19:46:00.005+08:00

i'm back♥
fast right (:
Okay, i shall recall what happened on Thursday 5th march & Friday 6thmarch.

Thursday; discovery center, then the campfire for the sec 2 & 3's
The discovery center was fun(: - i was scared of the helicopter!

The campfire's at labrador then sembawang,lasted quite late, but it was worth it.
Ms Nur drove me and Ruwei there. together with ms hafizah in the car.
mr chua drove haziq and byzura there. but they reached first cause we went to the sec 2 camp first.
Teachers gossip more than us- okay, i shouldn't talk much. she reads my blog.
but nice of them driving us there(: its like super far away a little bit more reach Johor already.
it was instructor rayyan affan's birthday.He claims he's 16.
The only seniors there were : Me, Ruwei, Haziq, Byzura,Julian and Sok San
besides the previous years seniors.

Senario:
Birthday boy Rayyan gives us curry puff (:
Byzura : eh,Haziq, i thought i was the only weird one. you don't eat the crust also?
Haziq: yeah.
Me: i like the crust.
Byzura: you want?
Me: Nahhh.
Haziq/byzura: haha. your weird !
Me: Ruwei, you eat the crust?
Ruwei:* shakes head*
Me: what you mean no. you just ate it woman!
all:laughs!

Mr yew, drove us home.then when i got out of the car, i realised.
Ruwei's holding my emerald t-shirt and its still with her.

On friday i intentially wanted to skip school cause i was super freeging tired.
i reached home like arnd 10 going 11. went to sleep like 11.30.
then i remembered ms nur saying. You both better come to schol tmr,
were all in the same boat okay.

08march09

2009-03-08T14:13:00.002+08:00

Away for now but . I'le be back soon(L)

7march09

2009-03-07T18:33:00.004+08:00

everything in their eyes.

I'm just a stranger living in their home.
I'm never good enough.
When you know you hurt me,you don't say sorry.
Just another un-important person to the world.

04march09

2009-03-04T18:40:00.008+08:00

Headline for today : i almost nearly accidentaly died.
I wanna follow the sec 2 and 3's to their camps!
My batch in sec 2 had our camp in school 2 days 1 night.now, their time so lucky,
at some labrador camp.the sec 3's at sembawang!
I wanna go! sadded.well i already had my chance.okay. enjoy!
I hope i can visit you sec 3's during the campfire tomorrow night(:pray for me alright.

Why i nearly died.okay:during social studies period.
saufi and i were at the teachers table he was keeping some thing,me i forgot why i was there,
the projector was in a different direction.

mrs hannif :holly don't touch it its dusty.
me:okay,
me: i touched with a slight tug! but still considered as a touch! - i wanted to bring it up.
the next thing was *BOOM!*
everyone: OHHHHHHHH!
me:omgosh!
saufi: holly! trying to blame everything on me.*with actions*
me: what what!what!*panics*
saufi:*more panics*
Mrs hannif: Both of you are lucky you didn't get hurt.
Saufi:yeah,touch wood.
Mrs Hannif:No! thanks be to god, what if it hit you head, you could have died.See holly i told you not to touch it.
me :( im sorry!
Mrs Hannif: well its better that it fell now,cause it was unstable.

Somehow its my fault cause saufi was nearer to the projector and i touched it.I think if he died everyone would hate me.

*Akid comes back from toilet and sits down*

Akid: eh what happen why fall?
Mrs Hannif: where were you?
Akid: toilet.
Mrs Hannif:You missed it. Holly and saufi are still recovering from their shock.
peoples: laughs!

We spent the rest of the period talking about accidents.HAH

I wonder if anyone still reads my blog.TAG if you do okay (:

3march09

2009-03-03T21:34:00.009+08:00

danah named ms rahayu's perfume that looks like jelly POKAKITTY
pronunced po-ka-tee.danah claims its a girl.cause its pink.

Ica (:Chaichee yo!I look nerdy, well not as good as last year.ern, this is for you-Click on it if you can't see.

Went to Ngee Ann poly today for the Sdma awards.(:This year just went for the participation,Saw familiar faces(:
My eyes are still not okay,that's why I'm wearing specs.-people are so irritating.Exam fail fail fail.Missed choir to recieve the Sdma participation award.

2/3/09-Happy birthday zahid.
3/3/09-Happy birthday faiz
4/3/09-Happy birthday fifi

OHH i saw parkviewens. they won something, My own primary school.
And me in secondary school. nothing :( its okay. there's always this year (:

01 march 09

2009-03-01T17:04:00.003+08:00

I don't care if touch screen phones suck, I want them.

Happy birthday merlya (:

1march09

2009-03-01T10:06:00.002+08:00

The lack of freedom The lack of freedom The lack of freedom The lack of freedom The lack of freedom-Kills
Keep me in a cage.Feed me every now and then.
I hate my parents.Stop judging my friends , you don't even know them,
lets see. Saturday-I overslept. missed annual awards day rehearsal.
Sunday-I'm kept in a fucking cage.

22feb09

2009-02-22T17:53:00.004+08:00

yesterday was not a good phototaking day for me,
with the swollen eye and all.

yesterday was airport studying day(:
apparently we weren't the only chaicheeans there -small world.
In great need of mugging.

June
-Japan
-Ngee Ann Poly camp
-kotakinabalu.
which one(?)I have no freeging clue.

Blocking everything out for this
baby run, don't ever look back.

18feb09

2009-02-18T19:31:00.003+08:00

I'm so fucking sick of life right now,

all my rants.

common test is next week and i haven't stated my revision yet.Its times like this were i get fucking pissed off with my CCA. Whatthefuck. exam next week still got CCA(?) Then if i don't go come and scold me and say , you look fine to me-well what the fuck do you know, Then when i get home, its like stop spending time outside doing nothing.I don't think i should hold meetings anymore. whats the fucking point. Send you all messages also don't come.waste my fucking sms.Ignore, don't go. Then can tell me right that you all got something on? But you don't apperciate. I'm just another speck of dust to you people. I got no purpose in infocomm at all right? Its my fault we didn't win sdma this year, all the other years we won. This year we didn't win. why because of me.Its my fault the members are uncommited. Its my fault you all screw up.Infocomm's joing japan in June, Just another dream shattered.yes, its my fault infocomm's dying.

you people can just sit around and watch me die.
cause i don't mean anything.

17feb09

2009-02-17T18:34:00.007+08:00

nerd-geek-4eyedfreak
cause FIFI wanted me to:
here son!

my cosine rule -written on chemistry paper
yes! i'm a nerd,cause i wore specs to school today cause i had a fuckass eye infection.

I've been called names like, Nerd, geek and 4eyedfreak. but i know all of them are said on purpose.so i don't really give a shit.F&N coursework.TA completed. but somehow- undone.

16feb09

2009-02-16T20:37:00.005+08:00

I was tying my hair okay! -so unglam!look at the sun, if you were there you know. its so not normal
Zulaikha,gave me this tweetybird plaster.
and when i asked, do you have a plaster she was like. Close your eyes and stick out your hand.Then i said why and she said if you don't do it i won't give you. So i did,

The haze is causing headaches and eye infections.-fuck! and mood swings too.
I skipped choir today. sorry Mrs ho.

14feb09

2009-02-14T19:22:00.007+08:00

Happy Valentines day everyone(:

the power lights went out and i am all alone,only darkness still remained.
blow the candles out looks like a solo tonight.I'm beginning to see the light.

Today i did absolutely nothing.Yes,nothing.
All i did was go to school for maths, so pathetic go to school just for maths.
valentines day and i went to school for maths.-"how awesome".
but there was byzura and saufi (: which made things better. with ms rahayu too :D
Being not allowed to go out on valentines day and a saturday!
whatthefuck .They think i'm gonna date(?) maybe they want me to be single all my life.
Sorry Afina i couldn't come but Happy birthday and Happy valentines day!
Sorry Ruwei, i know you heard her scolding me.
Yeah. the course changed perspective, will work hard for N's.
Once again spent valentines day alone. but who really needs to celebrate it anyways.
its just another day after all.

The lack of freedom is killing me.
I don't need a BGR afterall cause i'm perfectly fine w/o one. i guess the Love from my friends is all i need.
But in fact anyone can celebrate valentines day ,Just with the people you love is good enough already but
its really just another day..

Blow the candles out looks like a solo tonight, but i think i'le be alright

RANDOMS: my name is Holly and i spoil english (:
CURRENTLY : Fenny (my dog) attacking vacuum cleaner 0:

13feb09

2009-02-13T22:20:00.004+08:00

(?)

byzura's ballon to me (:

the only picture i took today

Friday the 13th / the day before valentines day in school.
My day started off with bad luck, i realised my brand new earpiece got stolen or lost. fuck!
I was late for the first time in the entire year.The people in front of us that ran ,made it on time, but we just couldn't be bothered.i gave out chocolates as well as got some.Monday should be getting more. but I'm running out of chocolate to give people already.I stayed back in school until 5. i couldn't wait the extra hour for you people.sorry.Jumping from npcc to guides to ncc and to the canteen (: Me, Ruwei and Afina hugged until we fell down. But we fell down on the road! where it actually hurts! Hugg until fall down!

Niki:i wanted to help , you should know,
but knowing can also hurt.its myfault and I'm sorry.

12feb09

2009-02-12T21:10:00.015+08:00

Coach Sabrina (:

Shariff went up to give her a tissue cause she has the flu. awws!

They are gossiping about us, on like purpose!

i got fat legs D:

coach ansel (: pencil (so primary school right!)

Break time yo!coach ansel again (:and again!coach wan xi (:
everybody (:

2nd day course (: was alright i guess.
They forgot to forfeit my group! :DD hahas.
The other half of the window broke, its alright people!I
got embarrassed in front of the whole sec 4 level.
well just 4n1,4n2,4n3 and 4n4.
i think everyone forgot already! opps :X
P.A freegin tiring.
Aww. i miss them already!
My photos are unglam :(

11feb09

2009-02-11T22:37:00.009+08:00

with coach Ansel (:
"Thats the reason we are coaches cause we have unique names."-well not all of them.

ohh, P.A room,Ohh, P.A room. OHH! how we love our P.A room!

The P.A window broke today. after generations and generations. the window finally broke.
Hello seniors, The window broke during our 08-09 batch! were honoured !
and the person that the window broke with was a non-infocomm member!
lucky no one was hurt.
I guess its about time, i think the system hasn't changed either
imagine how many hands touched it already!

The course overall was really good(:
although it was 12 hours. with breaks in between of course.
my group got last. Tmr forfeit D:
warning:maybe mood swings with be on high tmr,

i know you don't care anymore,
cause no one knows or cares anymore,
but whenever you need anything. I'll always be here.

10feb09

2009-02-10T19:26:00.011+08:00

Retards. YAY! Anil stole my animated icons.
but its okay. cause he gave me his songs.

Holly amanda. Amanda joey (:

4n3 :DD- well half only. others could n't be bothered and left.

half of 4n3 plus hurairah!

when i said i'm gonna post this on my blog mrs tay said : omgosh!
hahahs. sorry! I ♥ you Mrs Tay!
Today, i got scolded by 2 teachers, whatever.
Tomorrow some N level course from 8am-6pm for the next two days.
12 hours in school!

4n3 : take more photos together!

Labels :Bonding-more please,

moodswings -7feb08

2009-02-07T18:42:00.006+08:00

Pardon me, I got fucking mood swings and i think they are getting the better out of me,
went to school for maths extra class.
No one gives a fuck.No one gives a damm.No one even cares.

Labels: No, I'm not fucking alright.
No its not simple,never easy no.

Updated(: 6feb09

2009-02-06T22:01:00.022+08:00

I've updated my blog (: finally right?
who's life isn't screwed up right now? I'm okay. but then again i'm not.
its like, i think its coming back together again. but then it falls apart again.
i gots no valentine. but who cares! spending it with sarah sayang is good enough.

okay these are just overdue photos from: CNY and random other photos :)
sorry for the delay.

MeiMei, i miss you. but sadly i forgot your name already! -she's awesomely cute!My hair is curling already :C brother/great grandfather :]

table,table

the NCC freelance photographer
Tumbdrive(:

Zahid: i said i do this, so i miss you okay. hahas. as a friend only (:

neww

2009-01-25T23:46:00.003+08:00

After much though put into it. i've finally decided to unprivate my blog. and i don't care what you people think anymore.-whatever. and people ,you can stop scolding me for not inviting you into my private blog. cause if it makes you feel better i didn't invite anyone.

yesterday(25jan09)
junwei's BBQ.
super awesome (:
with the fake radio DJ's
new catch phrase (indoka)

release of o lvl results

2009-01-12T22:35:00.005+08:00

Jody! i miss you already. howhowhow?
remember the date alrights (:

Today was the release of the sec 4e & 5n 'O' level results and i did P.A as usual.
aww, their all leaving and i didn't get to say goodbye :(
Stop leaving people! can?!- sadded.
those that didn't make it. don't be upset alright. there's always another chance to do better (:
(like i know, what i talking about right (?)
you know, i keep writing 3n3 and 08.
its like a habbit i can't change.darn it :(
okay.i shall explain this scenario.
Me:eh, how much jonny got?
Guanan: 17.
Me: ohh, then CCA ?
Guanan: minus 3.
Me : so its 15?
Guanan: 17-3=14 lahhs!
Me:*counts with finger action* ohh yeahs! sorry. *laughs*
Guanan: Holly! taking N levels this year don't know whats 17-3 ! how to pass like that?
Me: sorry lah!
And and i'm starting to wear specs again. OMGOSH! i'm a nerd!
what to do, save money and not buy contacts.

Labels: okay, honestly.I'm sorry
i've made mistakes,now i will try learning from them.
My mum dreamt i got stabbed in the heart by my dad,
am i wrong to wished that had happpened?
-your not the only one that gets hurt all the time you know.

It dosen't take a genius to find out, i'm still not alright.

2009-01-11T20:42:00.003+08:00

the hardest part is lying,
i can live without you but, without you i will be miserable.
nothing feels like home, your a thousand miles away.
words never felt so hard to say.
no one knows how i feel right now.
-everyone's really inconsiderate
i need someone to tell me everything's going to be okay.

-my rants,crys and complains are still not completed yet-

emoing

2009-01-10T21:23:00.003+08:00

i suddenly feel. everyone's going. everyone's leaving.
were all drifting apart people :C
in 1/2 years you won't be around anymore.
and i won't have the friends i used to care and love for who would love me back unconditionally.
its like no one cares anymore. everyone too caught up with N or O lvls?
does anyone still even care?

whatever i'm too paranoid. :c
i want to cry,rant and complain. -listen if you care

sec one orentation.

2009-01-10T14:41:00.006+08:00

nizam the extra :X ( i spell balloon with one O )
The balloon , which jarah said this is my heart , if you break it you can't fix it anymore.
then it popped once and she got another one and it popped again.LOL
she loved that sky blue balloon.

Yesterday was the sec 1 orentation . totally waste of time.
the sec 1's don't appreciate it, well what to do, KIDS are KIDS!
choir sang and we went like really wrong, lets hope that's the first and worst performance of the year.
Then after performing i helped out with P.A then went around the school with jarah and heni visiting all the CCA booths.
then photo duty with jarah, like hopping around the whole school with the balloons.
Jarah's was blue. Mine was yellow and Heni's was red.
So high and stupid!
we got some to join Infocomm i guess and some for choir as well.
but more than half the time i wasn't in the choir room.
i was too busy running around the school with Jarah and Heni.
and i had to close up the P.A room and i gave heni my yellow balloon and i lost her.
so i took the bus home across the school then i saw her at the traffic light.
she was holding my Balloon and i took the bus i said never mind forget it.
Then she ran across the road just to give me the ballon back.
I'm sorry Heni, but thankyou!!
-everyone wants to do duty for the graduating classes the day they get their results back
-but during school hours how?
and Niki: i'm sorry i didn't help you feel better, i'le try harder next time grandma (:

rumors.

2009-01-06T17:28:00.002+08:00

i really can't bare today.
Okay, to begin with , there were rumors going around about me. things that i have not said or done.
well firstly : i have not "talked bad" or been rude to any teachers this year, if i have done last year .
please forgive me and that is in the past. i do not wish to recall them nor do i want to have any grudges with any of the teachers i have this year, i want to do extremely well and i do want to pass my N's. i really want to become a better person.

Secondly : if what i said in my blog has offended any one This year i'm sorry. and if i intend to "talk bad " about anyone in my blog.i would include vulgar and in my previous post i didn't . i only do that when someone is really being unfair and not understanding at all.but that was last year and i am not doing it anymore. Infact it was nothing 'bad' it was just was misunderstood,
its not that i hate any teachers now,and i don't want to , \ in fact : she's a really nice teacher, she's understanding, although she can be significantly Mean at times but i guess sometimes its for our own good and i know she doesn't mean it and i am not "talking bad"

Lastly: i do not, i repeat i do NOT go teacher hopping. i do not go complain from one teacher to another.why would i even want to do that?i have my friends to complain to.whatever you hear about me is not true. if you want to ask me personally, your welcome to.

Labels: please get your facts straight, before it goes around.

2dayofschl2009

2009-01-05T20:01:00.003+08:00

sorry,no good photos today.

Today's like the second day of school 2009.And yes, i still can remember being in sec 1. Yuckie experience!
i dreamt of two people in the last two nights. it wasn't such a good dreams 1.-blahs-okay?
i saw sally at the SPC bustop and we went to schl together, i had a traumatic experience with her just as we reached school but i hope she's alright.
Ohh, and a couple of CCA's are closing down. sadded.
see lah! chaichee. how can! see population dying. facilities like stoneage.-kinda saddening for them
i don't expect infocomm to stay around much longer ither, but since were needed by the school, we stay(?)
i just the next generations don't get it hard on them.
i might be needeing recruitment but sec 1's two classes. 59 students only. Howhow?
Then i went to get the school song. for assembly plus anthem, and when i got back.
they finished singing!-Okay nevermind
mr chia wants to get furniture in the P.A room. saywhat? non-moveable furniture.
then i was like how to fit, then he said thats the point,less people get to enter the room. -_-
wow, the room thats smaller than a jail cell has better stuff in it.
The Air-con and now non-moveable furniture. Big wow
i couldn't find my mother tongue class.was like searching high and low.until i finally found it.-
wow, i couldn't find something in chai chee.
ohh. bare witness to this all : Ms Hafizah called us all idiots. when the mistake was clearly her fault.
it was Chemistry. Then Ms hafizah was like Saufi! late comer stand outside,
Then saufi said : cher, but mrs Lewis wants everyone to go to the lab for chemistry,
Then she was like HUH? now chemistry.? i thought english.-whole class laughed!
She's gonna get back at us somehow quote.. gahhs so scared -_-
and and i clearly said out loud, I"m so gonna blog about this. am so i am now.
Ncc might close down. well thats what i heard.
Then during recess: saufi was eh, There's sec 1's ask them to join NCC.
then chuansin said: those are girls stupid!
hahas.okayokay.
For maths i got Ms rahayu.its fated to be! thats what she said. LOL.
i need to pass all my subjects this year since i'm only taking 5.
and i haven't got exemption from mother tongue yet! OMGS!

firstdayof schl

2009-01-02T19:00:00.006+08:00

the first day of school.
talks in the hall, new principal.
hair check , attire check.blah,blah.
P.A like almost the whole day.
its a good first day.
at the end of school was in Dilemma with like,
Go lunch, go home with me, wait for me, go home alone.
so pressure, LOL

Labels : i have to get this thing off my back,

don't go 2008

2008-12-31T20:01:00.002+08:00

I don't know why but. I don't want 2008 to go yet.
i don't think so much has happened,
.maybe .maybe not.
i'm scared of change.
i'm scared of loosing people.
i don't want to grow old.
emotional much (?)
was supposed to go out with Ruwei.
but didn't.
I didn't do anything for Christmas and New year this year.
well always next year.i guess.

Labels: please don't go (?)

3 days post......

2008-12-29T20:43:00.003+08:00

27th dec 08

seafood at eastcoast (:
with mums office peoples.
camera, no batt -so pissed.no good photos, sorry.

28th dec 08

wasted time with sally,
played the hotel 626 game for a while. then got scared then stopped.

29th dec 08

went school. bought books.
jem came over.
brought fenny to the park.she didn't wanna swim though :( she just kept digging in the sand , if my parents went she would have gone swimming.
my slipper broke half :( way jem fixed it , the superfixer.
and when i fell down jem took a photo of me :(
but truth is she fell down twice!

Labels: Alot of filling up to do.

Xmas.

2008-12-26T15:57:00.004+08:00

Christmas was a complete bore. i was technically supposed to go to mrs tay's church but due to mis-communications didn't go.
will make up for it on the 28th , i guess.
i went to church. the night mass and that was it.
i got a couple of presents. i didn't reply to Xmas smses cause bill is flying high.Sorry,
I wish i was in Philippines for Christmas instead.They would be partying their heads off.

SANTA; you still haven't given me what i wanted for Christmas
Labels : not the best Christmas ever & Happy boxing day.

bbq-ingg.

2008-12-24T00:48:00.007+08:00

me , tyler, Nigel featuring Hair! / feet, pool

today went swimming at Chinese gardens: at some condo.
bbq & swim.
second time swimming with rebonded hair :C
i ate alot of chicken wings: fatness. put on weight :C
i named this kitty snowy. well cause its white and Xmas is coming so Xmas equal to Snow then you add a Y.
ok lame i know.
it kept coming back for food and me! hahas. BHB i know.
well food yes.
she's pregnant. i hope she will be alright (:
just hang around the BBQ area, and give the cute face, and you will get a free feeding, no problemo.
Nigel kept bullying the cat! big meaniee!

ohh:ruwei , i will scream your name under your block like a mad woman! i don't think you chase fenny,
fenny chase you.then you run away scared!
then i won't friend you!:d Humphff!
ask me go then you don't go! wahlao eh!
.

Everyone is too hyper! cool down people!
wait, i wanna be HYPER TOO

mrs tay church then mine

2008-12-23T01:02:00.006+08:00

21,dec,2008

went to mrs tay's church with ruwei & troy
it was awesome! from the christmas play, to the people to everything.
mrs Tay drove us there ; and when she couldn't park the car straight, Blame the road! it was crooked! hahas.
Then after that i went to my own church (: havent gone like in 34548650697968 years.
2 churches in a day!
should be going to both churches again on Xmas day itself again !

Being scolded, for looking in every mirror :C

Wish a gift wall, ignore the persons head (:

wine Christmas shopping-'my mum and brother'
this picture is really weird..

ECP -it fiesta outing.

2008-12-18T19:00:00.013+08:00

Today i watched twilight. online;
i know why people hate it cause its a chick flick.
but i love it.
-it reminds me of something but,too painful to mentiongot the super HOT pink bike ! :D
All HAIL ALAMO! :D who needs seafood when you gots ALAMO
17th december 2008
I look stupid in this photo! these are for all the people that were supposed to come but didn't DANAH.RUWEI.REMUS and FAIZ.
sammy & emerald : i didn't forget you. i ran out of sand and space .
and sally too. too bad she had band today.if not chai chee could have conquered!

Yesterday, was the IT-fiesta outing at ECP.
thank god no rain.
took a bus from tanah merah, then stopped at a bustop near school
and walked walked from there to East Coast Area F, with millions of "almost there's" for optimism(:
yeah, we rented bikes for like 3 hours for $6.
only supposed to be 2 hours but i think they accidentally gave us another hour or something.
for lunch we walked and walked and walked. all the way to MacD.
lost all calories before gaining them back again! YAY!
sorry, ern & jensen .
you didn't enjoy your time there cause you didn't really know anyone well.
troy accompanied me and he ended up making new friends, so good for him.
so my cycled and slacked and camwhore. :D
its kinda saddening cause not alot of people came; its like if more people were there more fun.

first peoples i saw : Shariff, Saufi, Afiq, Firdaus and hannif's cousin.( if others i forgot to mention forgive me)
Most of them fell down, cause they rode from pasir ris to east coast to changi to somewhere.
So you all can't laugh at me anymore for falling down!
Most of your bikes can't take it- see time to get new bikes!
Afiq did no hands on his bike standing up.wow!
Saufi's tyre burst- see regret laughing at shariff that time now!

okok, now for everyone's favourite part :D

fifi-me-weikiat.
Riding our bikes like that,
ME: eh, weikiat why you ride so close! later bang! WEIKIAT : nono, i wanna RING your bell. ME: wth -.- rides faster away from them. FIFI: Hey, you wanna ring my bell ? ME:*screams from infront* OHMYGOSH, that sounds so wrong! FIFI: what you thinking ah! WEIKIAT: i wanna ring your bell! FIFI: you wanna ring my bell? i wanna ring your bell!
Then,FIFI and WEIKIAT's bikes both clank and jam! -hahahahaha
see thats what you get for wanting to ring BELLS!
then,we all stopped.
weikiat fixed his bike but couldn't fix fifi's.
weikiat scootered fifi's bike back.
and FIFI rode weikiat's bike back.

then second peoples i saw niki and fajrina and other peoples:
Part two :D

me : on bike (riding)
sees fimilar faces ,smiles at them
niki: HOLLY!
me : heyhey!
fajrina : holly, i smiled and said hello at you just now but you didn't smile back at me!
me : HUH?! hey did you see jensen just now!

haha, i totally didn't see her.sorry!-messaged her!
they spotted jensen too.

returned bikes went home-

Labels : RP meets SV, that should be nice (:

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2008-12-18T18:56:00.002+08:00

I've created A new word : Its called ; *drum roll please*

UPSADDED!
its a combination of :upset and sadded
yes, i know i'm ruining English

playground

2008-12-16T22:12:00.002+08:00

today went playground,
didn't play badminton.
just slacked around and screamed on top of our lungs.
I fell down. fuck fuck ! like 1 metre in height!
so embarrassing, this is like the worst thing that happened to me today.
All the people that saw you all better keep your feeging mouths shut!
i really would appreciate that alot ,thankyouu.
all the people that were supposed to come didn't show-up,but nevermind!

i hope tmr will be a better day, it fiesta outing .

demoralised: sadded

2008-12-15T21:58:00.007+08:00

I'm de-moral-ised
I'm freeging sadd-ed

Its like no one cares anymore ;(
everyone keeps canceling on me,
i know you have other important things to do,
but its like no one cares anymore.
Do the people or the event for that matter mean anything to you.
If you cancelled on me, don't feel bad cause your not the only one
and i'm not Pin-Pointing anyone,don't misunderstand.
I just want to let you know how important you people mean, cause without you its like there's no show.
There's no more fun or anything,

If you know me, i'm very dependent on other people.
i can't stand alone.
And you people will just say -grow up.

Its my dads birthday ;
and i gave him some challenger voucher
i got at the infocomm youth awards day,
some daughter i am right?

sayangg

2008-12-12T23:11:00.004+08:00

today, i went out with sarah sayang (:
i bought a jacket and a bag
total expenditure $30.
well okay i guess.
$46 from my pay is gone.
i'm trying not to spend.
i don't like to splurge.
cause after i do i'm left with nothing :(
so if your planning to go out with me,
everything has to be on budget.
i'm sadded.
so hard to explain my money probs :C

2nd jab

2008-12-10T21:21:00.007+08:00

yesterday, i went to suntect to get a jab.
second jab of the year, this one is for the flu.
since my mums company was paying for it, she asked me and my brother to get it .
so now we got a year guarantee of not getting the flu. i guess.
i also went for this salad buffet,
well, it alright .its good to have something healthy anyways.
my favourite was the mushroom soup (:
although i did have some ice-cream which my parents claim is 5million calories.

you. can see my brother's hair at the top right hand corner =.=

the ice-cream thingy is a self-service thing with the machine and stuff you can add on toppings too.
but unfortunately I'm not that good at it with the 'decorations' and stuff.
Ohh, and i work at an ice-cream parlor?
ignore how crappy i look in the photo alright? i got this shirt yesterday, it says The Beatles (:
it costed $16. - heart pain but nevermind.
the spongebob tee costed $17. i might buy it, i think .I don't know if there are any other places that have it cheaper but yeah.
I need to go clothes shopping!

2008-12-08T18:42:00.002+08:00

I'm trying to learn my guitar(:
yeah. i do love my guitar.
i'm bored ,rotting at home.
i'le find stuff to do.

you know, I miss sebana and spending time with my cousins.
although i have to go through being the only girl.
stupid family feuds.